Aku manusia lemah........

Salam,,

Kali nie aku mmg dah xthn n aku tpakse tulis jgk..
its quite privacy but im juz a person..
n dis is d 1st tyme aku rase ttusuk sgt..

aku xtau nape parents dia jd mcm tu..
i did asked him but he said he dont know either..
aku knl dia since June..
we made a really good friendship..
wlwpown dia 1st class,dia still treat aku mcm base..
we had our days as a fren 2gether but then everything turn upside down..
parents dia xbg aku kwn ngn dia..

how do I know?
his mom texted me..
arhhh..aku xphm..
sumenyer sbb status ke?harta?
waktu aku g raye kat umah dia sumenyer ok..
now?

aku nk parents dia tahu yg aku xpenah amek ksmpatan pown atas dia..
i juz only being one of his frenz..
yez!!mmg ktorg ade chemistry tu tp aku masih sdar kdudkn aku n aku xpenah biarkan sumenye melepasi batasan..

aku knl dia bkn sbg dia skrg..
plukan tman,,easily cn hv everything n doesnt know how 2 make up a relationship..
malah nk mcari shbat pown aku rase dia xconfidence..
aku juz nk tlg tp??
aku xphm,,nape jd mcm nie..

aunty said it was ok 2 be fren wit him,,
then now?
u forbid me?

aku xpenah kisah nk bkwn dgn sape..
bg aku x ade makne harta,rupe n status..
coz sume org ade hak untk mdapatkn ape yg dia org nak..

n dia cume nkkn seorng kwn!!

n aku cube nk jd kwn dia!

but u said u doest wan him 2 get influence by me..
arghhhh..
what a nonsense..

should i left him juz like that?
no ones around?
parents yg keep busying on their works..
lonely?
im not really that cruel..

can u guys understand that he need someone and u both as his parents should know dis more than me..
he need u both!!
a pair of mom n dad!!!!!!

kalaulah u bace nie,,u akn phm nape sy x blz all those msg..
i dont get any option..

apepown i know seorg ibu n ayah akn mlindungi anknye
n thats what happen 2 u..
u are lucky coz they are protecting u over me..
myb im not really a good person that u should be fren wit..

im sorry 4 everything n keep ur study well..
i still remember u as my loveable fren..
its hard 4 me n sy tau awak lbih brat mnanggungnye..
be a good doc later..
im praying 4 u..

I FOUND D WAY..

Bismillah,
Salam..ntahlah tbe2 tpanggil utk tulis sume nie..mgkin aku nk kongsi ape yg patut djdkan teladan..kte dah buat salah so no ways to turn back,rite?but we hv the chance to turn it well..

B4 i was entering SAMURA,sumenyer x mcm skrg..aku sgt2 brubah..the real me hilng..kat samura aku blaja byk benda n serba sdikit kejahilan aku,kebodohan,kedaifan ilmu aku,aku tebus..

Aku belaja mjd Islam yg sbena,,it such a bold revealation rite?bialah drpd korg menanggungnyer jugaktp bg aku,aku msih blom tlambat tok smua pnyesaln tu..i got the chance n now i did it..

wllwpown prubhan aku tu hnya 20%,, at least aku napak way tu..Cume skrg aku tkut,,i noe in a split second semuenyer bleh brubah..Doakan aku supaya aku xbrubah..I need ur support guys..Its hard 4 me to get through all this alone..

Aku hrp kwn yg sbenar2nyer teman aku ke jln yg btol..sgt2 bharap..n xkan bhenti bharap..aku minx dkuatkn iman,,ape yg ada d atas kpala aku kekal di situ,apa amalan aku kekal sebagai amalan n apa suruhanNYA,wajib aku tunaikan..sape2 yg ada ilmu n nk dkongsikn dgn aku,plsss..i need u.. aku xpnah napak klebihan aku,,sbb aku slalu mpsoalkn kkurgn aku..skrg,i want to make a move..semoge aku n org yg membc nie bjaya juga..

DIA maha penyang..menerima taubat hambanya..salam..

It Was My Fault!!!

Tbe2 rase nk cerita mngenai cinta aku..


aku ada cinta,,,once..


yg nie aku paling appreciate sgt.. but it was my fault,,i left him..


xda alasan kukuh nape aku tglkan dia..


yg aku rase tyme tu dah tbe masenyer aku tglkan dia..


its heartbreaking sight to behold but i did it too..


itu aku wat lepas dia abis SPM,, I knew him since I was in form2,,then we make up..


about 1 year ++,,


dia ckp biler dia abis SPM dia nak luangkan mase utk aku,,


tp inilah aku..


kpelikan aku x pnh pudar..


aku tglkan dia,,mentang2 aku da abis PMr tyme tu..





arghhhhhhhhh,,now i mis him so much..


last nite,,i visit his site in MS,then I found the pic of his new gfren..


Congratz to him,,he managed to move a step not like me..


aku tutup pintu hati yg aku sndiri tutup utk dia..


Now I lost..


without anyone..


But watever it is,, I know theres somthing waiting for me in d future..





Someone realy can suit this crazy women..


he is a man that im waiting all this while..


hope i can c u later soon..

PS:aku tglkan dia yg stahun bsame aku tp skrg dah 2thun++ aku still x lpekan dia..pdn muke aku..

LOVE ME..

first month in SAMURA

...todai i wanna to talk about my 1st day at SAMURA..

waktu 1st tyme dtg hari selasa,12 feb 08..take note,on that day was my birthday...aku xda kwn n sorang2.. tapi aku jnis sempoi n tak kisah pown..

mle2 aku xnk pown masuk boarding skol but mak aku kate da dpt chance nie,juz go..

okkkk,, aku pun pergi..

THe thing dat i doesnt know abaout SAMURA is there's only form4 n 5..ok la tu..

sume yg dtg fresh mcm aku..

kne jd nerd same2 kat sini..

ari 1st tu aku dpt byk msg wish bezday,,sonok+sad ar..

tyme aku masuk dorm,,aku mmg buat muke nk kna ban..

tp biar arh,,mlz nk lyan.

then ok je kowt ari aku..

Kak emo pown juz nice..

tp aku wat sumthing yg xbleh kat sini..

aku kuar nk ltak kasut pkai towel without any pin..

hahahaha,,mke kak Liyana mcm nk mkn aku je..

hahaha..

senior yg baek ngn aku kak Donpot coz dia yg sambut aku..

then kak Pain,,bu4..

nice gler..

yg rapat ngn aku mule2 Wafa..tp lame2 xrpt coz aku xsekepala ngn dier..

wlwpown classmates..



PKARA PTAME AKU INVOLVE..

@forum ar,,dr situ aku ltakkan diri aku dlm standard tsendiri coz im d only junior fm4 gurlz yg join bnda nie... besh gler..

@dr forum guk aku mcm kne banned ngn snior coz kpopularitian aku..

hahaha,,mlz nk tulis saper dorg..



bnda laen aku join debate interhouse..

bosan ah debate wlwpon forum lg bosan.



then I wuz chosen as PENGHULUWATI(wlwpomn xda function sbnayer)
hehehehe,,bmulalah hari2 kpemimpinan aku..
people said aku sombong,,snobbish coz my jeng face n many more..
aku redha coz aku dpt pahala dr ape dorg kutuk aku tu..
watever..

aku pnt naip nty aku sambung ag,,
bye22222

aku dan diri aku yang sebenarnye..

aku dah lama nak tulis semue citer aku nie..tambah2 ag aku dah jadi ex-samurianz..
i can make many confessions as no one cares..rite?

saper aku?
-aku adalah aku yg aku sendiri tak tahu..org ckp aku pelik..comment plz..

ada ape ngan aku?
-aku x ada ape2,,cumer citer yang hendak aku kongsi..how i grew,,what i've done,,and many more